A week or so ago, Courtney sent me a link to a local credit union's website, where they outlined the details for a movie contest they are sponsoring. Sounded right up my alley: short movie, very few guidelines, cash prize. Score!

Ever since then, I've been trying to come up with an idea of what to film. I've tried to force the idea, and I have sat around trying to just let it happen. Nothing has worked. The deadline is the end of the month, so I feel like I need to get started now.

Then tonight, out of nowhere, while sitting at the dinner table, it came to me. The idea. All at once, out of nowhere. I saw the whole plot - start to finish, and it made sense. I could film it. It was endearing. Everyone could relate to it on some level.

Having the overall story is huge, but now that it's time to move on to the details (otherwise known as "the work"), my mind is doing everything it can to sabotage the project. I've been procrastinating. I sat on the couch at length watching some random show about our atmosphere on National Geographic (which is fuzzy for us because we're not even supposed to get it). I've surfed every web site I can find. And now I'm blogging about it.

This happens to me constantly. Every project I start gets to this point where it tries to implode. I don't WANT these things to fail, and I really do enjoy working on them. But there's something about the creative process that is very hard to understand.

So now it's 9:43pm, about 4 hours since I came up with the idea for the film. And so far I have not touched pencil to paper on even a rough draft storyboard of a basic scene.

Maybe after I publish this I will, but who knows. Ideas come and go, and so does motivation. I wish there was a magic pill that would let me stay "on" all the time, but it's just not that simple.

I'm looking forward to getting past this temporary block and finishing the video. If it comes together like I see it in my head, it should be pretty neat.