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Thursday, July 17th, 2008
Responsibility and the Metamorphisis of Dreams
Today is sort of a landmark day for me. It marks a poignant turn in my decision making maturity, and in return, leaves behind much of the idealism and day-dreaming that has shaped who I am and my chosen path in life. I have struggled with fantasy since I was a child, and have always looked to the next thing. Who will I be then? What will I do? Will it matter? Those are all questions I have asked myself on a regular basis, and although I have been able to concoct many great futures for myself, I always end up with a piece of the dream at best, and total abandonment at worst. It has been interesting to look back at my teenage years lately and and remember what idealistic, and often unrealistic goals I would set for my future. That idealism is a huge part of who I am, and still shapes the decisions that I make for myself, however, my perception of reality seems to creep into those dreams more as I age.
Today I leave behind a small dream and bit of idealism in trade for a very sober dose of realism. I am selling my Jeep. I am delivering it to the new owners this afternoon, and will end one of the last of my living teenage dreams.
I am not sad, but I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately, which is why I'm writing a blog on life because of a vehicle. It is a symbol for me. One of success and freedom and independence. I was able to buy it on my own, and I have poured ridiculous amounts of money into it in the past two years since I have owned it, but it fulfilled a dream, and that is what was important at the time.
In the meantime, two more of my dreams have been realized, and have at times been quite neglected. I started my own business a year ago which requires much more of a time commitment than I am currently allotting, and I bought a broken down house that after 3 years still needs lots of love and hard work. Since my Jeep is paid for, it will help to finance some of the house projects and put a little money in the savings account in case the business hits hard times. This too, is symbolic. My dreams have changed. I no longer spend half of my day(not every day at least) dreaming of boats and Jeeps and motorcycles. I am now looking towards a more realistic future of hard but rewarding work that will hopefully not only be a means to an end, but also a life that is full of small but realized dreams through my daily life. So, there it is. In 4 hours I will officially pass into responsible adulthood and will leave my last living teenage dream in the hands of a very nice young couple who will no doubt fulfill one of their own.
Responsibility task #1: Get some paint on that ugly thing!
Responsibility and the Metamorphisis of Dreams
Today is sort of a landmark day for me. It marks a poignant turn in my decision making maturity, and in return, leaves behind much of the idealism and day-dreaming that has shaped who I am and my chosen path in life. I have struggled with fantasy since I was a child, and have always looked to the next thing. Who will I be then? What will I do? Will it matter? Those are all questions I have asked myself on a regular basis, and although I have been able to concoct many great futures for myself, I always end up with a piece of the dream at best, and total abandonment at worst. It has been interesting to look back at my teenage years lately and and remember what idealistic, and often unrealistic goals I would set for my future. That idealism is a huge part of who I am, and still shapes the decisions that I make for myself, however, my perception of reality seems to creep into those dreams more as I age.
Today I leave behind a small dream and bit of idealism in trade for a very sober dose of realism. I am selling my Jeep. I am delivering it to the new owners this afternoon, and will end one of the last of my living teenage dreams.
I am not sad, but I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately, which is why I'm writing a blog on life because of a vehicle. It is a symbol for me. One of success and freedom and independence. I was able to buy it on my own, and I have poured ridiculous amounts of money into it in the past two years since I have owned it, but it fulfilled a dream, and that is what was important at the time.
In the meantime, two more of my dreams have been realized, and have at times been quite neglected. I started my own business a year ago which requires much more of a time commitment than I am currently allotting, and I bought a broken down house that after 3 years still needs lots of love and hard work. Since my Jeep is paid for, it will help to finance some of the house projects and put a little money in the savings account in case the business hits hard times. This too, is symbolic. My dreams have changed. I no longer spend half of my day(not every day at least) dreaming of boats and Jeeps and motorcycles. I am now looking towards a more realistic future of hard but rewarding work that will hopefully not only be a means to an end, but also a life that is full of small but realized dreams through my daily life. So, there it is. In 4 hours I will officially pass into responsible adulthood and will leave my last living teenage dream in the hands of a very nice young couple who will no doubt fulfill one of their own.
Responsibility task #1: Get some paint on that ugly thing!
The jeep thing didn't really fit with the responsible, green thing, either -- did it?
LimeyGeorge, that house has already realized a good bit of it's potential - it was pretty much a disaster when they got it!
I love the addition of the nicely designed front porch. It completely changes the feel of the house. Yard is looking pretty darn good too, Sarah.
See our new colors. Yes, it is light green and purple:
http://www.humzoo.com/mattpike/photos/1/23/
China- I am a remodeling contractor. I don't usually dig too many holes. I make the lazy 18 year olds do that as much as possible.