Monday, April 5th, 2010

Will you read this poem for me?

I wrote this for my honors class and they said I should get it published, what do you think?

How long must this go on?
How long must I suffer from the irreplaceable damage caused to me by society?
How long must I scream inside for release from this monstrosity?
Why do they do this?
Why do they jaunt and jeer at me?
Why do they pass judgement on me when they aren't entitled to it?
Why are their hearts so cold?
Why do I feel like the world is being ripped out from underneath me?
Why do they say these things?
Geek, Ugly, Stupid, Fag, Useless, Retard.
Why?
What did I do wrong?
Can I fix it?
Or am I lost and unable?
Why do they beat me, break me, punish me?
What rule have I broken?
What social norm have I forsaken?
Why do I go home with bruises and missing teeth?
The humiliation of seeing my mother's face as I show her another injury.
Just leave me alone.
Leave me alone.
Then it happens.
I snap.
I rage.
I fight back.
I win.
But I've lost.
A part of me has just been torn from me like a mother from her newborn child.
I'll never be the same.
Is this what is normal?
Is this what is acceptable?
I'll don't have the answer.
For once.
I'm done.
I'm depleted.
I'm angry.
It's futile.
I'll never be who I used to be.
I've lost myself.
And I'll never be back.